drugg addiction lost me everything, and I had alot to lose but I didn't care and eventually had a psychotic breack down and suffer with loads of stupid ****, but I strarted again to forget the **** they cause and now I can't relax untill I've got something.. Thats the most idiotic thing I can think of and am fully aware of the irony and I can garuntee that alcahol is the worst for multi substance users and always leaves you wanting to get that bigger buzz and will always be there with most addicts.
I've smoked ciggerette's over and over today just to some how substitute being soba and having no money of which I owe every penny I get out and I know why I do it but just dont stop and laugh at myself and the stupidity but I ignore me and myself and just almost default like waste another day.
I hope slagging myself off enough will do something if there's any pride left so
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