Hi Hopeless girl, welcome to pc. I'm sorry you are feeling so bad. Six years with depression seems like a long time. I am like you in that I feel like a failure so often and that is not a good feeling. I'm like you in that I would like to wake up one day and be happy and feel good about myself. Hang in there and keep posting to us. I know life can be so ugly but I keep holding out hope of something better someday. Have you been to a therapist or anything? I am just now trying that route. Hope it works. Best of wishes.