Depression really sucks. When i'm depressed it feels like i've always felt that way and that i will never feel any different. It's kind of like i forget there is any other way to feel. And then it lifts a little, and slowly things get better. I was depressed in the winter, and all i did was go to work and come home and lie on the couch or sleep. I had no motivation to do anything, and i didn't want to see anyone. I didn't have any med changes, i just waited it out, and i came out of it on my own. But it really felt like that was all there was to life. My life felt so pointless, loss of any meaning. I wasn't even that sad, i just felt nothing and was apathetic. It's amazing that i don't feel that way now. This will pass for you too. Nothing is constant in bipolar, so this depression you are feeling is temporary. Do what you can, and it's ok if that isn't very much. This too shall pass