now that I am dissasociating more, I missed my appointment - so disapointed - he was gone all last week...

and I can't remember if he told me 2:00 or 3:00 tomorrow - so I am going at 2:00 and wait .... he is in private practice with another T so it isn't easy to get hold of him....

I am so disappointed... why am I doing this???? it's so hard to tell secrets... it makes me so uncomfortable... I hope he doesn't get totally mad.
just GRRRR to me.