Wedding anxiety is no joke. It's been almost a year since I was in my brother's wedding and I had no date at 29 (Shocking, I know!). So I definitely get it.

I agree with Clara though -- think about what YOU want. My old T suggested that I write it down. Regarding work: is there anyone else that could possibly cover for you during the time that you'll be gone? Surely you aren't the only one that is requesting time off. And it's only 1 day. It doesn't hurt to ask. When is the wedding?

You mentioned that you're scared of what you'll do to the people that you don't like. What is it that you think that you'll do if you see them?