That sounds very much like me in recent months. Totally different for me. I have always either been totally down for a long period or pretty much normal for long periods. Now I can be all over the place over a few weeks. I call it mixed states and rapid cycling but I don't know if I fit the definition.

I am on a med that is actually working good after 20 years of different meds that haven't worked so great. Fetzima. Effexor has been one of the better ones in the past.

My psychiatrist says there is a war being waged inside of me between my real self, human spirit, the meds, and my depression. Sometimes the depression wins and sometimes I win with the help of the med. Since April I have mostly been winning but it gets triggered so easily and I don't understand why or what is going on. In the long run will I win or will it???? I don't know.

Hopefully if you give the Effexor a fair chance it will put the odds in your favor. I would have never believed that Fetzima would work this good after 20 years of playing the med game.