Sorry to agree with the other posters here, but the relationship appears to be toast. Being clingy and needy will certainly not lure him back, and will only make life more difficult for you.

Something else nobody has mentioned here....you are becoming a prime candidate for a codependent relationship...probably an abusive one, so be very careful...they NEVER end well.

I think I understand what you are going through, and it may be painful for you to hear this, but you must move on. Just as importantly, you must also get your house in order before embarking on another relationship, or there is an excellent chance it will be a painful one.

In any event, good luck to you.