Ok...

Been a bit mind blown. Mentioned this in part before on here... But my T on what I've been telling her of my experiences in here and my sensory over sensitivity she suspected elements of aspergers (high functioning). She asked me to do a test and send the results back to her.

She said that if I got a score of over 34 that would give her cause to get me put forward for screening... I hit 39. Sat there at the computer and felt my world crash around me a bit. Obviously it's just a test and I would need to be put forward for official diagnosis... But yeah, panicked.

Sent my t a follow on 'omg' email and text asking her to call me.

She was saying last night that patterns were falling into place, but that till recently she had missed it as we were always chatting in a neutral calm setting one to one. That with high function it is very easy to miss but would explain a lot with regards to me struggling so hard to function in a lot of situations that has led to depression and anxiety.

Spoke to my wife and she has done her best to reassure me and to put into context that it's something to explore and that regardless of diagnosis or not, it will be a good exercise to rule in/out root causes.