Please call your pdoc. they need to know that you are hurting this baddly.
This is a fight for survival,
you are worth this struggle!
there are chat rooms here that you can link up with people there are chat rooms all over the net if you goggle them.
People just like you and me are struggling with these same issues all over the world...
know that you are not alone in your suffering...
You are not alone.
((((HUGS)))))
bizi