Hey sweetie. i'm sorry things are hard for you right now. i imagine your p-doc will say something like 'you shouldn't just stop taking your meds like that. if you really want to stop you should do a gradual withrawal, otherwise you should keep taking them'. but of course you know that already and i guess you need to feel bad right now. sometimes... people need to grieve. to rage and the like. sometimes it can feel kinda intensely good and intensely bad to get it out both at the same time... don't know how much this is resonating.

> I can't even imagine what my session with T will be like

well... maybe he will get to see some more of you than the 'good client'. you might well find... that showing him some of this (and having a good cry) will leave you feeling a whole lot better?

maybe.

i hope it goes well for you.