I lost my mom in May to lung cancer after just a month knowing she had it. We didn't have the greatest relationship. When I was young, she wasn't very nurturing - I never remember her holding my hand, or being affecitonate to me. Everything was fine as long as I had good behavior. In high school she began drinking more and eventually got hooked on prescription pain pills. She was controlling and manipulative with money. However, no one else knew this about her - we just seemed like a typical family.
I haven't really cried since she passed. I've started seeing my T. again in April to help me through this. I've seen her as needed for 4 years but this has been the longest. When I bring up not crying over my mom, she asks "what if you never grieve?".
Is it possible not to grieve? I now find myself feeling closer to my T. than ever before and wonder if it's due to my mom's loss.
Just curious if anyone else has had a hard time grieving....