Big hugs I get shy and was scared too, but in the end I've realised it's important to get the help and support. I've had my diagnosis of depression for 4 years now, but it started much sooner - I know how awful it can feel when it's been going on for such a long time and nothing seems to be getting any better. We just have to stay strong - things always get better in the end, it just takes time I suppose. Look after yourself, J.