Thanks everyone. I think you are all right, I just have to wait it out. I just rarely have to wait so long for a flip. And when I do I tend to blame the meds for stomping the mania out but keeping the depression strong...but now I don't know what to think. That was my argument against abilify last year but here I am a year later in the exact same position on a totally different regimen. So maybe it's just me.

I guess I just have to take it easy until it passes. Even though it feels like it will be forever, it can't be, right? I've proved that I do have bipolar time and time again so even though the seeds of doubt are sprouting again I know it's just depression talking. Ugh. Just shut up already.

I did drop down to IOP again so I'm going to therapy tonight. I'll share with them how I'm feeling which is not like I want to go to group at all, that's for sure. But I'll drag myself there. Too bad it's DBT night! I hate learning DBT. I've already learned it.