Hello applejack007, welcome to Psych Central.
I'm sorry to hear you have been through abuse, glad to hear that you are out of it now though. It helps to talk about it and put it in it's place and it would be good to work on your self esteem also. Are you in therapy? Please keep sharing with us and you might also like to check out the
Survivors of Abuse forum.
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