hi,

i am new to this forum i found out about it on a blog so i decided to come here and discuss. i am not very good at explaining things and i fear to be judged cuz when i did ask my friends about my problems she came to conclusions directly. that i am a desperately obssesive girl who lets herself to be treated like a door mat. i know it isnt wront but i was and i am in a very delicate situation and stopped sharing things with people.
i am 23 year old female medical student i read about you from yahoo answers and i wanted to contact you. i have problems with my fiends and i dont know how to solve them. i have tried staying away tried talking less tried being nice and supportive but everytime it was inadequete. some one would always have one problem or the other. i have a group of 15 friends so i know i cant be liked by all 15 of them but being accused at every single time is also frustrating. i have two jobs i give tutions as well as write freelance articles in order to pay for my bills and help at home plus my mother has osteoarthritis so i have to sometimes handle kitchen and household work too. so i get busy really busy at times and i do not spend time or go out in hangouts very often.
another problem is that i am fat, i have buckteeth and i have a sad/boring/grumpy/sleep deprived looking neutral face and thats why i often get singled out and get laughed at alot. i have a very good sense of humor so i always make a joke and laugh it off but everytime being laughed at for just the way i am makes me feel annoyed. i dont wanna feel bullied or that i am not good enough, but this constant thing of taunts and laughs get to my nerves and i get all negative in my head but i dont show it to the world, at least i try to so that it just says in my head.
another big problem is that i feel manipulated by two of my friends. one is a guy named imran, he says that i am his best friend texts me himself all the day and then disappears without a trace. secondly i have a girlfriend her name is fatima, i have heard her talking about me behind my back quite alot of time but the thing about her is that you can never really catch her cuz she just gives everyone an idea and everyone else leads themselves to the conclusion that Abeer is a ***** or abeer is disloyal or abeer is this or that. i really really feel manipulated and angry at times cuz she and him are the ones usually the first laughing at me and shes very pretty girl tall fair thin light brown hair and has alot of guys liking her including imran and im okay with it although she shares alot of her life with me and im always mislead with that is she a good friend of mine and is it just my negativity or she really one to be beware of. she has led everyone believe that imran likes her and that im desperately in love with him. just God sometimes makes me feel like im so inadequete. i know i shouldnt be giving in thats why im seeking for your help. please let me know what shall i do? how shall i feel good about myself when my friends think that i am desperate for guy attention, i am a *****, and im just that ugly grumpy looking girl.

awaiting your response.