What you are describing sounds like something that I have experienced as a gifted individual, too. Academic things were just too easy to master, and it makes us wonder why our lives don't work the same way. Life is different from semantics; that's why.
It can be difficult to live with an intellect that makes our NORMAL human mistakes feel out-of-balance. We tend to constantly second-guess ourselves, wondering if we did a thing just right. As for myself, I believe that this quest for perfection came from my mother, who tried to live out in my life everything she thought she had failed in her own. Any time I disappointed her, I felt like I had utterly failed as a human being.
It was not until my therapist took an Iowa test assessment of me as a 9-year-old and made a bell curve out of it that I finally began to understand.
Yes, I was highly gifted (in the top 2 1/2%) in the areas of knowledge of vocabulary. My parents and teachers called this "my potential". They failed to mention that I was within the average 90% in three areas, and in the "learning disabled" (lower 5%) category as far as application and analysis were concerned. This meant that, although I had vast knowledge, I had no idea how to use it. I still don't. Not right now. But, the big thing is that I no longer hate myself for it.
I know that in my case, the expectations of my authority figures played a HUGE part in my personal feeling of inadequacy. I don't know how it is for you.
I think that these concerns with perfection are related to OCD. As for myself, they have been driven for 44 years by my "perfect" (NOT) mother and my father, who was oblivious to her physical and emotional abuse to myself and my sisters. Again, I don't know about your situation.
But the upside is that you CAN learn to figure out what is good enough for you. You can relax, enjoy your life, and make mistakes like every other human being on the planet. It is OK


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