I was treated for everything under the sun in the mental health system: addiction major depression bipolar ocd eating disorder adhd borderline pd and so on. Today I was telling my therapist that the thing I can't get over is ptsd. She said all my other mental illnesses can in face be caused by ptsd. This completely makes sense because 7 years of my childhood are blacked out from ptsd so that was my first issue. I also always had certain fits of rage & anger (verbal) that never seemed to fit into any bipolar category. But ptsd often stems from pain which can manifest itself as rage. For me, I don't believe I'll ever get past the pain all together, but there is a sense of peace in knowing that there's a reason behind all of this. I'm reading The Boy Who Was Raised As A Dog and Doctors literally didn't believe children experienced ptsd until the 1980's!!! Children were believed to be resilient and bounce back. And even today not much attention is paid unless the child is horrifically beaten for years. What these stupid experts don't understand is we didn't have adult coping mechanisms, so our coping skills turn to self destruction, guilt, rage and basically set us up for failure.