I realized a long time ago that even as a young child (as early as 5-6 yrs) I had many symptoms of MI. My first thoughts of suicide occurred while still in elementary school. I was a loner as I was afraid of most people because most of them were sarcastic, rude, mean, vindictive etc.
I had many disturbing thoughts about harming others and I started to self-harm as well.
Being so young I did not know where to turn, I did not even trust my family enough to tell them how I felt inside

Although I went through a few brief periods of relative normalcy I was always considered to be weird and strange by most people. All I wanted was a friend who could be nice to me. I did have some people I would have called close friends but none of this ever lasted. As the years passed my MI became increasingly severe and obvious to others.

Here I am today 50 years later, right now recovering from serotonin sickness. Nobody except my wife wants anything to do with me.

I don't really want any sympathy I was just very curious if any of you were MI from such a young age as well. I truly hope not but it would give me a belated sense of comfort if someone could identify with me.

Geez, now I sound desperate! I'll post this now before I re-read it and chicken-out.