A t's job is to help you figure out why. It's okay to say I did this and I don't know why but I need help. A good t isn't going to kick you out of therapy. That's exactly where you need to be and it's her job to help you. Who wants to spend time with someone who struggles with lying? A t does. It takes courage to admit what we struggle with and a t is supposed to be a safe place to work that out.

I don't judge you. Sounds like you've had a rough go of it.