Sure you like the attention- you don't believe you'd get/deserve it any other way. I don't think you are happy though, the way you are. If you were you wouldn't be here posting about it.
Therapy is a place for you to look at your behaviors openly and decide are they working for me, or not? Did they ever? Can I change them? Do I want to?
Judgement doesn't help. Yes, while "normal" ppl could get angry a good T shouldn't.