Thank you, I was considering calling the crisis team as I'm now on "their list" so to speak. I am at work at the moment so just trying to get on and see if it passes. Not that I'm getting much done, I've just been thinking. I know I don't want to die, so I don't understand why I get like this or if I'd actually go through with it. I mean I tried in the past but I thought I'd learnt from the mistake. Maybe its my medication, I think maybe I should get in touch just to see if they can speak to me.