this thread reminds me of myself so much. ive been on here and you all haev given me such good advice, yet i am still so scared/too damn proud to go and speak with someone professionally. i keep thinking that its just what im goin thru with grad school being so stressful etc, and even had an hours talk with my boyfriend where he tried to get me to see that i was triggering myself, and i just needed to relax. i understand where he is coming from but its hard for me to relax...i get anxiety when i dont have enough to do, which is ironic because as a grad student im usually run off my feet. but it means that i cannot relax cuz when i do, i freak out that im not doing something or not being productive. weird huh! and also its always worse atn ight, like when im laying in bed. so anyways now my bf is still at work (he has ADHD and sometimes is at work so late) and that makes me unnecessarily upset, and then i get nervous that im annoying him, and oh gosh its just a freaking crappy cycle! does anyone else have this problem with not relaxing like this? it seems so weird cuz shouldnt it be stress that is making me anxious? its like im stressed out about not being stressed out....uh ya, that doesnt make sense! anyways, im rambling so ill end it here. thanks guys for listening/reading