Hello 90confused, welcome to Psych Central.

Certainly bullying wears you down and makes you feel awful about yourself but there needs to come a point where you like yourself regardless of what other people say. Beauty comes from the personality and not the superficial looks. Looking at the way you have written, I can see that you really do not feel good about yourself at all. You need to like yourself for other people to like you, does that make sense? So, what to do about it? Keep sharing on the forums here and check out the Steps to Better Self-Esteem forum. It would also be a good idea to seek psychotherapy which will help you to feel better about yourself and give you the confidence to deal with those bullies. Hugs