Thanks for your reply! I think it has more to do with my insecurities. I think I was getting too caught up in the "what if" and forgetting what is right in front of me, not in the dreams. My boyfriend has been interested in buying a house together and I guess that has shot my anxiety through the roof thinking, wow this is a huge step. I feel that once we are in a house together and if we break up it will be a huge ordeal and I just scared of him being done with me and realizing he doesn't want a life with me... I suppose self esteem issues can be to blame ...