It's not because I'm smarter than everyone else, btw. It's hard for me to trust people, and even if I do, I still don't trust them enough to let them in on my secrets. For instance, I can tell them "I'm feeling down", but I can't really tell them why I'm down.

My mom, I talk to her more than anyone else on the planet, but she doesn't listen. Things I say go over her head. Sometimes she starts talking when I'm talking, and it's like she becomes completely oblivious to what I'm saying, like she can't hear me at all. I have to scream "mom!... MOM!" and then she's like "oh what were you saying son?". All I can say is 'nevermind', because the right moment has already passed and I don't want to say the same things again. It's incredibly frustrating, but I don't blame her at all.

Sometimes I try to let my emotions out, but I feel like no one values my emotions, if this is too much to ask from people, I guess I'm the fool then.

Only time my friends listen to me, is when they're drunk, they tell me they love me, they tell me that they're always there for me. They sober up, and they're all gone, I realize it's just the booze talking.