my personal restrictions are endless!
I am somewhat stupid!
I am somewhat amazing!
the grip I have on myself is deliberate and painful...

...like?...people tell me to get a grip!

I was holding onto things that they never can imagine is possible!

I am designed to grip!...and to let go!...

of the things that seem easy...

I can hold onto the danger way too long....
and on the way to letting go I arrive at some comfort...

it's a unique arrangement I have with an unfortunate illness...

I realise that I cannot function like an emotionally gifted human...

I try to hell and back...

I continue to fail...

and it's a somewhat miracle that I even notice...