I know what you mean. I really enjoy going to the book stores, but there are lots of fears to deal with. I always worry I won't be able to get my hands washed and dried the way I need them to be, and then I'll be stuck "not clean enough" to touch and buy books, let alone do other things, like buy stuff I might need later that day. If the store doesn't have handsoap, I have to ask, and sometimes they're not very speedy in getting it in there. That's rare that I have that problem, but it's happened. One store we frequent only has one hand dryer, and I can't wait to get my hands dried; I have to get my hands dried as soon as possible after leaving the water, and I can't stop until I'm finished (I mean, I can't step away from the hand dryer so someone else can use it, then go back to it), and I have to get my hands completely dried before I can go out and enjoy my shopping experience.

If everything goes okay, I still have to calm down once I start shopping. I just have to relax, now that everything is done and I can focus. But I also have to worry about bumping into people and having "accidents" where I'll need to wash my hands again. And that's just in the book store...going to dinner has its worries and rituals, too. *Sigh!*