I was wondering about that.....

Since your thinking had been so far back in your life......as children we don't just choose to think certain ways.....out thoughts are LEARNED by either the positive experiences or negative experiences around us & by what other people teach us to think....you thinking starting so young had to have come from someone close to you or you saw things growing up that made you think disgusting thoughts about it.

As children we don't just make up our thoughts out of the blue & for no reason.

Glad that you are getting somewhere in your therapy now......good for you....but you also don't have to learn that sex is nothing but recreation. It has it's proper place....in a marriage between 2 people who love each other!