Either way this goes i think i should go no contact , besides managing the kids when needed.

Thing is, i am trying very hard to gain the strength to do it, but in the moment that i have to "man up" by staying away, i tend to fail awfully at that just because i need to see her and be with her.

Although i do feel stupid by accepting when she calls me up everyday (i´m not calling, but i´m not saying no, which is a bad thing).

I need to move on, but at the moment i feel that is really hard to do.