It's even harder when you're an imbecile like me. How exactly am I supposed to live if doing basic things seem hard. I went outside today. Not something I usually do and I can't really do it alone so...I got dragged out to do stuff with my parents-

I'm 21 so I just hope I get viewed as like a 14 year old or something. I look too old I think. I get ashamed going out with my parents but I think it's worse going out alone. I've gone out completely alone one time in my life.

Was terrible.

Would think a loner would be better going out alone. Not me. I'm terrible. Not sure how to explain that. I am agoraphobic I guess.

Am I just really lazy? I feel really lazy. Could say I am depressed. Or I am just really a lazy retard. I get tired doing anything. Everything feels hard. I can't get a cup of water without feeling stupid tired. Doing anything feels like a ton of work. I sleep a ton. I don't want to do anything.

It's hard being a retard. A lazy retard. I've always been like this.

I knock on my head and it sounds hollow.