And yes, I do need to take more care of myself.. Iv lost a stone in weight through worry. I hate being powerless & not being able to comfort her at least..at night she cuddles a pillow in the clinic & I do the same at home. This is hard, but I WILL get her through this & she is going to be happy again..don't care how long it takes her to get well, I'm not going anywhere..I reassure her that every day, she is worried I'll leave her, she's so insecure right now,this isn't her.. I'd never even think of that, she is my life, without her I would be lost, same as she would be without me. She's not just my fiancé she's my soul mate & that is so hard to find...all I can do is reassure her..no matter what it takes I'll do it for her to get well..wish I could swap places and take her pain away, I'd do it in a heartbeat..