I so understand. With my other T, that happened to me all the time. It was frustrating for me and I'm sure for the T. With the T I have now, we have our appointment on the same days every week and the same times. I struggled in the beginning but now even if I dissociate, I still end up there most of the time. It also helps that she knows what is going on. I think that helps the frustration. Maybe you can discuss with T what is going on?