Hi notagooduser, unfortunately, I know how you are feeling. I feel like that too many times. I can tell you this, it will eventually lift. You have to find something, even if its something small, to help yourself, meaning, a picture of a baby, a puppy, if you think they are cute, a snowflake (sorry, I hate snow, but not everyone does) a rainbow, just something to try to lift yourself. Go for a walk, its free, talk to someone, if you have a pet, they like to listen, and give a lot of free kisses, my dogs always make me feel better, journal, (I like to do that) get it out, that always helps me. The feelings will come, if you let them. I'm not saying you aren't letting them. Just don't give up, keep trying many different things. You are by no means a monster or freak. I hope I helped a little. Like I said, this happens to me a lot, I hate feeling empty, like, I'm a blob, but I at least "feel" something. Even if it is "empty" its something. I think you will feel better soon.