so my t has gone away but has given me email addresses so i can email him. he didn't say anything more about it than that so i have no idea of the boundaries, however. i mean... he said something about 'the first time you email me...' which leads me to believe that it is okay to email him more than once. i don't know whether he envisaged my sending an email every week (so there would be three) or quite what, however.

i started by throwing an internal tantrum which involved 'i don't need you anyway and so i'm not going to email you at all'. then i backed down a little by saying to myself 'i'll reply to him if he emails me first'. anyway, i'm over that now, and i'm thinking about what to say... what would be appropriate for me to send.

normally we would have a session this friday. so i guess i want to send him something before that or around about then.

i'm not sure how long is appropriate. i don't want to overwhelm him / make him regret having said it was okay for me to email him.

i want to try and say some of the stuff i can't say to his face... i don't want to overwhelm him...

dammit.

i wish he gave me limits like: not more than xxx often and not more than xxx number of words.

who wants to make up some limits for me?????