Yeah, so I would've done it that night, but following my promise to contact someone, I called 1-800-suicide. The plan was to not let on enough, or to bolt before anyone could interfere. But the guy decided I really wasn't safe, and called the police early on in the call. So they showed up at my door, and I had to go inpatient.
The hospital experience was good, though, this was a VERY good hospital, better than the one I'd gone to a month ago, which I also liked. And I guess now, with the partial program, I think I'm going to push through these very stressful, unsure weeks and make it where I need to be.
Now I've just got to get medicaid, because without it the bills will be way too much... the lesser ones I got from a month ago are too much... I'll probably end up suicidal again if I can't get this financial help.
See how this goes. I'm mentally and emotionally exhausted, and pretty tired all around. It's really hard.

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Matthew 11:28
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.</font color=green> Sounds good...