After many years of starting and abruptly stopping taking an ad because of side effects, I've finally decided to stick one out that I hadn't tried before. It's a very low dose, and I think I will need to increase, but I have noticed a very slight improvement. I still wake up dreading life, but I know I can stop much of my negative thinking if I really want to.
I always thought my life is going down hill, but I'm starting to realize that there could be some good things yet to look forward to. My counselor doesn't seem to have a sense of direction going, but today she talked about thinking about what I value in life. Even if I don't know where this "therapy" is going, I'm still grateful to have someone to talk with, and she does seem to really care. Small steps are okay, and she says failures aren't real. There is value even in what seems like a failure. We can learn from, and keep going with more experience. Hugs to all here who are suffering. I like to keep up reading this thread, so my thoughts are with you and hope you all get a reprieve from the suffering.