Thank you so much for taking the time to reply and with really helpful suggestions. I've always been really honest with the staff about my BPD and they have a really good knowledge about the disorder and the chaos that it can create in the sufferer's mind. The other staff are fab too and I have started to spend a bit more time with them. I have had counselling before and explored the root of my attachment issues, but never really felt that I have effectively learned from past disasters. I feel with my current sw that I have at least I have a chance of exploring coping strategies and a possible resolution without being treated like a freak.

Sending a big hug back, hope you find a way through xx