There's 5 more days until I see my T and 6 until I see my pdoc. I just want to give up. Invega Sustenna is working wonders on my psychosis and mania, but I can't get out of this depressive episode. I'm going to discuss with my pdoc about getting on Paxil, my pdoc doesn't want me on an AD because they make me manic but I really don't care at this point if it makes me manic. I hate myself so much and just want to end my life. I feel like time is going to go by extremely slow until my appointments.