i always had my notebook & pen with me when i saw her in person, and would fiddle with my pen, eventually i realized it was a "tell" how much I was fiddling with it she figured out the more I fiddled the more I didn't like the topic at hand when I realized she'd figured that out I started keeping the pen stuck in the notebook spiral til i was ready for it. i used to could be such a lil booger.

after i stopped using my pen, I started grabbing the pillows on the couch and kneading them with my fingers, that worked too.