Hey Pinksoil,

How ya feelin' today? I don't judge you when I read that you quit taking your meds because it'll make your therapist concerned about you. Sometimes I'm totally attention-seeking too. Sometimes I'll plan NOT to talk about a subject just because I know he wants me to. Actually last night I was planning to say nothing in group (what I usually do naturally) and then avoid the topic of group altogether today in individual. Something tells me that would bug him. Of course I've already screwed up by participating last night, but I guess I was in a weird mood.

What is it that makes us want to provoke our therapists? It's not like I don't get total attention when I'm there. But maybe I like total attention better when it seems that the other person is really worried that I'm screwing things up. Somehow that kind of attention seems more attentive or something. I dunno.

I hope you can hang onto your anger, but don't put yourself at risk too much. I mean, take those meds if you need 'em to keep from losing it at work!!!

I'm at work right now, and I feel like I'm in a stupor. Guess my job's not too exciting today.

I hope your week gets better....

Sidony