Hello, First I want to say to post on a forum again is extrodinarly hard, I was shoved away by so many because of my love, ya know? So this is my last post, I'm sorry for my rants but Im so paranoid of the fact of the truth always lingering.

Since I was really young I noticed repeats of history, not war, not some great invention, rather the repeat of words turned in to lies. I for one have always cheerished the words love,friends, and best friend.

Being 17 and going through emense therapy, and dosages of drugs I've found professional help to be a mere money gimic in my situation knowing of the truth, it will not help me.

Furthermore, how many times honestly do people marry for 15 years, supposedly "love" theres spouse and even have kids then unexpectedly they pass away, 2 months later , 2 years later, or at some point they find a new "love". LOL its ridicdlous you know now I know why im so freaking crazy why live a 15 year lie then be brushed aside. You know why they remarry? Because they only think of there own pain they could give 2 shits about there dead spouse's feelings so they continue like it was a 15 year highschool relation to where it was sex 24/7 and love was used to "fit" in.

Of course this is a opinionative but I've saw it all too well. Also "best" friennds. What is "best" friends? To me its some word used to connect 2 people with a hobbie, sports,games,anything once that connection is broken they drift, thats not imo even a friendship.

Y'see I finally figured out why I'm so depressed and theres nothing nothing nothing I can do about it, because the world is in control, and sadly its fixable but humans are scared of change because they live in that day rather then in the whole time frame.

Sorry for my rant, take care all I hope you dont hate me, see you around.