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Originally Posted by precaryous
I am in the middle of itwith NewT. I have experienced this before with PrevGoodT.
Mine feels like "intense love," as you put it. I also describe it as a severe "homesickness" feeling for T.
These two therapists seemed to roll with it, act like it is beneficial to my therapy. "You feel how you feel," they tell me.
Any good T is already prepared to listen to these feelings from you. They seem to know what I need before I realize it.
I have read that transference is a need being fulfilled.
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Homesickness is exactly the right word I think. Like an ache for a place that no longer exists (and maybe never did). It is akin in my mind to not being able to return to your war-torn country (even if you went back, your home isn't there) but catching glimpses here and there of something familiar that is both soothing and wrenching. It is lovely, but reminds you of what you can never have. You can adjust and even thrive, but you'll never not be a refugee.
Does that make sense or am I getting a little weird with my metaphor?
Maybe a better one is this: You're on a really strict diet. But once a week you get a chip. You want a whole bag. Actually, you'd love to eat them all day. You suspect it would be easier to forgo the chip altogether and forget what you're missing. But you can't quite bring yourself to do that.