Yes Bhugz,
we did get long winded and off the track. You speak of split personality. Is this by a doctor's diagnosis?

I know for myself I have been horrified by some of my own thoughts. Good and evil are ever present in all of us. Life is smoothest when we achieve a balance and proportion. When we suppress completely aspects of ourselves we frustrate ourselves. A common suppressed feeling is anger and without a healthy expression of anger we can produce many disturbing outcomes. My self worth lets me know I am entitled to express myself in ways that does no injustice to others. If others reject me for it, my self worth again protects me from their injustice.

Bhugz you should find affordable counselling via the church based community care services, here in Aus, Anglicare is one of them and they provide a wide range of counselling services from drug abuse to bereavement. Your college will surely have a file of available resources for your area.

Mostly Bhugz, you are not alone in your experience where ever you are. Come onto the forums anytime and you will find someone here who will talk and share.

All the best for your exams.
Regards Frances.