sorry i haven't replied sooner. Okay T doesn't want me to go because she believes that S is still not stable, that we don't know how he is going to react when i come and visit and stay the night. my T also thinks gathering from what i told her that S might have some co dependency issues ( BUt i don't know cause he is wanting to move but maybe he is doing this to try and get back at me for going to florida BUT he has told me to go to florida) Anyways, I feel like i need to go because it will be the last time i will see him for 4 and half months. I think going will also put a closuer to the situation, i mean i know it will always be in my mind, but going to visit and knowing that he is surviving will mean the world to me in my heart. I don't think i will be upset after visiting (prolly i will cause again i won't see him for a long time) BUt i won't be upset b/c of the situation. When i saw him last week i actually felt better than i had since the week before. But im sorry this is so confusing and i just want to thank everyone for listening to my depressing stories.

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