I relate so very much to your post, Soccer Mom. I am in exactly the same place with my T who has 25 years experience and is very "stringent" in her approach and all I want her to do is hold me and tell me she is there for me. I don't have any sexual feelings for her - just an massive need to be held and reassured. But she won't do this (well I havent actually asked) but she hasn't initiated anything touchy feely and I have been seeing her weekly for around 18 months.

She is now away for 8 weeks and I am falling apart. I desperately need to contact her before she goes but I am trying not to as it is out of session and I don't want to be a nuisance. But I just need to connect with her one last time.

I so feel for you SM and I am so sorry for your loss. Please keep posting. This is so helpful and reassuring. I thought I was alone with these feelings/desires.

Thanks again. a&a