Hi Jane - I am in a very similar place to you too. It is so painful. I totally understand everything you wrote in your post. I too have been seeing my T for around 18 months and I too am in this place and I know how terrifying it is. I am feeling overwhelmed today as my T is away for 8 weeks and it has hit me just how reliant I am on her and on our weekly meetings. It is pitiful.

You are doing so amazingly well, especially with your son being away at the moment. I have read your posts and i have huge admiration for you - you are really doing so well. I wish you could see how well you are doing, what amazing progress you have made and what an amazing T you have. He really is there for you. I know it is difficult to see when you are in the midst of it...

Take good care - keep posting.