I'm sorry you relapsed. Keep trying though. It's so easy to get back into something once you've done it again, especially when it felt good. It's not sick that you felt better afterwards. I know it's hard, but it wouldn't be an addiction if it was something easy to quit.

All I can say is keep trying and try to stay safe

If you ever need to talk feel free to pm me

((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))