what do you do if you have the worst anxiety of all time....my doctor put me on antipsychotics - made me so much worse so i stopped taking them. they wont give me diazapam or valium of anything of the kind and wont give me sleeping pills either. i am at my wits end, climbing walls, doing half a job going onto next, pacing, crying i cant do it anymore. why cant i get help why is it so difficult.

i wish i'd never been born at all. i wish i wasn't here i want to go into a cave in the dark and never come out again. i need to get this pain away from me, out of my system i need something i need to calm down.

i just dont know what to do anymore. i think my doctors would be happier if i just wasn't here asking for help all the time. they're all sick of me and so are my family

i'm selfish selfish selfish people who are dying and want to live are on my mind when i have these thoughts, but i cant help it i'm just so selfish.

i'm frightened, so frightened i wish i was strong.