I dont know know what happiness is and of course i dont know how to find it..

my mom told me once that you have to find those things in life that make you happy, not to relly on others to bring you happiness, and do what your heart desires.

i can't seem to find what makes me happy anymore..
and its probably part of this.. the not being able to enjoy life anymore..

its kind of sad to think that if i feel this way now, starting at a young age, i might have these problems later in life again.. and i'll have so many more problems, bills, kids(hopefully not .lol), a husband, and my parents might be dead..

that's a bright future to look foward to, huh?