Thank you. Yes I have missed a lot of information out. He'll go from I'm sorry I love you so much, you're the best thing in the world for me I can't live without you, to a couple hours later, after no incident happening "you don't deserve me, I can do better, your so bold, I had so many red flags with you, I should've never been with you, you make me miss my ex, you're the biggest regret, you ruined my life" then couple hours later he'll contact me crying saying all he needed was me to show him I care, and that I'm sorry for my past mistakes, and he goes through so much to explain to me what he needs for this to work, so I do so, and when I'm showing him my love and care, he turns the table saying "stop being so hopeful, it makes me feel bad you still want this when I'm hopeless. I feel like I can do better than you, I don't want to see you so hopeful" more than us not working out, or me blaming anyone, I'm beginning to believe he may have a personality disorder. or OCD, or anything. Then of course being around that 365 days out the year, I DO feel guilt with everything he's been so angry with me about. Our last conversation which was a week ago ended with "I can do better than you and when I do, ur going to wish u tried harder to keep me." then he ignored me. Mind you not, 1 day prior to that he had told me he cannot live without me, and he sees the good in me and he believes im good and doesn't wana let his insecurities or assumptions break us, and that he feels he's not good enough for me. Then 2 hours later he went on a rant of how much of a liar I am and started bringing up all the old arguments again... I just feel like I really was the problem, I really did bring the bad out of him...